I need your HELP and SUPPORT

Okay I spent 2 days binge eating like a pig. I HATE IT. I am losing weight I noticed it and also I workout for 9 hours a week which is a lot. My whole body is changing because I am having muscles all over my body and it replaces the fat. So, I am expecting a weight increase because muscles weight a lot more than fat! Now for 2 days I binged at night and I hate it. I hate that I starve at night and my stupid mind wants me to eat. I hate the fact that I love food and I crave chocolate. I want every fat cell in my body to go. I need your support and your help to put me back on track. I feel that I am giving up. Help Girlss